Post by Deleted on May 22, 2014 18:41:48 GMT -5
Hey Guys,
I know most of you don't know me, but I'm Singer 2014. I'm an administrator on this site and I used to come on here regularly.
For those of you who know me on a personal level:
I'm sorry for just leaving you like I did. I took for granted all the good friends that I had and now I pretty mich have no friends that always want me there and include me in things. I don't know why I did what I did, but I truly regret it.
I know this probably means nothing to you and I'm wasting my time because you do not care, but I thought I'd get this off my chest.
I realized how much I missed all of you and this site last friday at the senior picnic when I was hanging out with a friend, who is not on this site, and Darkwolf84. While we were wandering around, I wanted to talk to Darkwolk, but I just couldn't. I was scared that she wouldn't even respond, or that she would start yelling at me. I've never been that scared to do anything in my life, and I hated that feeling.
I started coming back on here last wensday, and I noticed that all of the RP's that I have ever particiapted in had been deleted, and that made me feel lot of emotions. One was anger. I was angry that all of the work that was put into those RP's were gone, and I couldn't get them back. That led to sadness. I was sad that all the memories that we created, even though they were fiction, were gone and I didn't know how to get them back. Then I realized something.
I have no reason to feel either emotion. I left you all high and dry. It was my fault and I deserved it and no amount of apoogizing would ever fix what I broke.
What really broke me was logging on a couple days ago and finding that htere was a new member that had joined. This member, highonlife, had started a new RP that they wanted someone to participate in with them, and there was no one. This member was asking questions about what happened to this site, and it made me wonder as well.
What happened? Why did this site go dead? On the home page, it says that this site and all the ideas of it, were eight years in the making. Eight years. That's a long time. And all that is being wasted on a site with cobwebs forming in the corner of the screen.
Here's another thing that I have no right to say: This hurts. Seeing the site like this, it hurts me. I am almost in tears while I am typing this because I am physically and mentally hurt by what has happened to this site. I always thought of this site as a release from everything. Here, I could take my writing to a whole new level and LIVE my stories. Watching some of the RP's start and grow gave me insperation for new stories and other things. I always looked forward to the time of day where I can just hop onto the computer, log on, and see what I missed since lunch (not that long but whatever).
Our small community was perfect. We didn't need new members. We were all like a big computerized family. Everyone new everyone. And there was that one family member that no one liked. There were the annoying soblings that COPIED everything that we did. There was that relative that was too chipper and hyperactive. And there was Fell. The one who started it all. She is the one I am most grateful for. She made this a reality and gave us a place to express our inner fantasies.
I'm sorry. I'm going to have to cut off here before I start sobbing at my computer.
-Singer 2014
(AKA: Abby Heyyllo, Abby Heyyllo, Phoenix, Hummingbird, Fairy Tail, KH Demyx Lover <3, Belle, and Singer 2014)
I know most of you don't know me, but I'm Singer 2014. I'm an administrator on this site and I used to come on here regularly.
For those of you who know me on a personal level:
I'm sorry for just leaving you like I did. I took for granted all the good friends that I had and now I pretty mich have no friends that always want me there and include me in things. I don't know why I did what I did, but I truly regret it.
I know this probably means nothing to you and I'm wasting my time because you do not care, but I thought I'd get this off my chest.
I realized how much I missed all of you and this site last friday at the senior picnic when I was hanging out with a friend, who is not on this site, and Darkwolf84. While we were wandering around, I wanted to talk to Darkwolk, but I just couldn't. I was scared that she wouldn't even respond, or that she would start yelling at me. I've never been that scared to do anything in my life, and I hated that feeling.
I started coming back on here last wensday, and I noticed that all of the RP's that I have ever particiapted in had been deleted, and that made me feel lot of emotions. One was anger. I was angry that all of the work that was put into those RP's were gone, and I couldn't get them back. That led to sadness. I was sad that all the memories that we created, even though they were fiction, were gone and I didn't know how to get them back. Then I realized something.
I have no reason to feel either emotion. I left you all high and dry. It was my fault and I deserved it and no amount of apoogizing would ever fix what I broke.
What really broke me was logging on a couple days ago and finding that htere was a new member that had joined. This member, highonlife, had started a new RP that they wanted someone to participate in with them, and there was no one. This member was asking questions about what happened to this site, and it made me wonder as well.
What happened? Why did this site go dead? On the home page, it says that this site and all the ideas of it, were eight years in the making. Eight years. That's a long time. And all that is being wasted on a site with cobwebs forming in the corner of the screen.
Here's another thing that I have no right to say: This hurts. Seeing the site like this, it hurts me. I am almost in tears while I am typing this because I am physically and mentally hurt by what has happened to this site. I always thought of this site as a release from everything. Here, I could take my writing to a whole new level and LIVE my stories. Watching some of the RP's start and grow gave me insperation for new stories and other things. I always looked forward to the time of day where I can just hop onto the computer, log on, and see what I missed since lunch (not that long but whatever).
Our small community was perfect. We didn't need new members. We were all like a big computerized family. Everyone new everyone. And there was that one family member that no one liked. There were the annoying soblings that COPIED everything that we did. There was that relative that was too chipper and hyperactive. And there was Fell. The one who started it all. She is the one I am most grateful for. She made this a reality and gave us a place to express our inner fantasies.
I'm sorry. I'm going to have to cut off here before I start sobbing at my computer.
-Singer 2014
(AKA: Abby Heyyllo, Abby Heyyllo, Phoenix, Hummingbird, Fairy Tail, KH Demyx Lover <3, Belle, and Singer 2014)